earth do what you will/forgive us

prayer/submission/spell

earth do what you will
mother father creator home
full of wrath, molten, tremoring
you show us how to live and to hurt you
all our life, we spiral out from your body
stardust and sea, anemone and feather
flesh and flower, metal and bone

earth forgive us
all children are greedy
we all demand love beyond what we can give
we all expect your miraculous patience
we are nonsensical, ungrateful
we take your hours, wooden toys, all the sweet
the attention, life force, and all your peace

earth do what you will
how long have we terrorized you
we violate your soft/sacred-ness, deny
that you are changed and changing, that your heart is broken, spirit struggling for respite
venom spilling from the wounds, swelling the surface, catastrophic chasm opening within

but earth please forgive us
for we are split as a species
let us who see you and love you
let us join you, we can tell you where the hurt begins, we can tell you where it ends
let us stay and whisper love songs to you in the turning of the cosmos. let us stay.

earth do what you will
cast us into the endless sky
make us brief

earth forgive us
before we learn to apologize
see us whole

earth do what you will
say finally, enough
take back each perfect gift

earth – forgive us
for we think we are walking
when you carry us

earth do what you will
we thought we could live without you
we have been wrong every day

earth forgive us
every step away from you is an error
even now, we love you

japan

those who have read this blog for a while know that my military family was stationed in Japan for several years, during which i visited many many times and fell in love with many of the people, the places.

someday i’ll write about the complexity of my military experiences, but for now i just want to say that i keep going back and forth between memories of the people there, who have been through so much nuclear pain and death already; anger at the combination of cosmic and manmade forces that created this particular moment of tragedy; and praying.

my kind of praying is a bit different, perhaps. i’m speaking to the shiver in my spine when i feel connected to others – praying that humanity feels connected to Japan, and doesn’t abandon the people or the beautiful place in this hour of need when they need all of us to hold the space for what has already been taken, and what suffering will come from the ongoing nuclear crisis – for them and for all of us.