I am beginning to suspect that the saturn returns phenomenon is a transition, not a phase.

there’s a lot going on, and although it seems i share everything here, there’s some stuff i just can’t blog about. here is a definition of it:

“Saturn is symbolically/astrologically associated with time, challenge, fear, doubt, confusion, difficulty, seriousness, heaviness, unwanted burdens and hard lessons, among other more positive things such as structure, significance, accomplishment, reflection, power, prestige, maturity, responsibility and order – this is why astrologers believe that the thirtieth birthday is such a major rite of passage and is considered by many astrologers to mark the “true beginning” of adulthood, self-evaluation, independence, responsibility, ambition, and full maturation.”

i am a virgo, so i analyze myself often. i do a lot at once, and quickly, and i make mistakes. when it’s pointed out to me that i have made a mistake i own it. so far that hasn’t kept me from making mistakes, even the same ones, over and over again.

this year has been like standing in the surf on a beach when the waves keep coming. sometimes its a warm day and the water is cold and it’s good. sometimes its a cool day and the water is tropical and it’s good. but many days the waves just keep coming, and i am only out here because the beach bores me to tears.

but the tears have to come anyway some time, good and bad ones.

and my question is, does life keep getting more dynamic, or in 11 months will this all pass, and will i find myself back on the beach again ready for the sun?