you have to love someone

two of these are not really videos but you kind of have to hear amel to feel me right now.

just off the second weekend of somatics and social justice and i am really feeling this stuff. the amount of knowledge my body is holding – around the trauma and pain i have experienced, and around the ways to heal – is amazing. learning the practices, and more importantly, learning to practice things that really make me aware of my body every day, is really liberating. then, to imagine scaling the practices to the level of interpersonal, intimate relations, then to the level of family and community, and then to the level of humanity…it is really inspiring to think that we have all this knowledge around survival and resilience and that we can practice being present, being resilient in body and mind and spirit (instead of reactionary, disconnected and/or violent).

now i am practicing a lot of things (meditation, jo kata, centering, swimming, eating mindfully), most of all being present, open and connected. what are you practicing?

my house is in order. i like that i have gotten to a place where everything has a place in my home, so when it gets into a state of disorder it only takes 5, 10 minutes to make it feel neat and wonderful.

i made an everything-in-the-house soup today. i have been saving and freezing all the extra parts of veggies from food i have made recently (just put the extras in a zip lock bag and store it in the freezer. helps to think ahead of things that might compliment each other and store them together), so i pulled that out and threw it in the soup pot. it was beets, ginger, carrots, a bug hunk of onion, some garlic bits. i let that all stew for several hours, then strained it and disposed of the now-depleted veggie bits. the broth was delicious. i then chopped up all the potatoes i had, and the asparagus, green onion and chives from the fridge and added it to the broth. i had a chicken apple sausage i also cut up and put in there. it came out so good!

this weekend i got to see amel larrieux live, and dance at a party of beautiful people. i got quiet time, stolen moments, and then deep healing time. all these things contribute to an incredible sense of balance and well-being.

i have had remarkable experiences over the past few days of really deep, loving relationships. reminds me of something i realized a long time ago, in the period of my life when i didn’t “do” relationships. it is so important to really come to a place of loving yourself, which doesn’t feel like perfection, but does feel like acceptance. and then, that love can’t happen in a vacuum – you have to love someone, and open up to let yourself be seen. you have to have a deep accountability to yourself, in polyamorous terms you have to be your own primary partner. and then you have to take that into the world and be in relationship with others. intimacy is like sun on dirt, when it’s right.

and in the bigger picture, knowing how to love ourselves and be in healthy relationships with others may be the missing skill set of humanity right now. we battle and dominate, when we need to touch and communicate.

so that’s all for today – who are you loving?