cosmic permission

“today was a good day…”

today i got a fellowship that i am really excited about, negotiated two contracts that i am really excited about – one local and one national, got excited about a possible way to spend a chunk of summer with my babies, and caught up with an old friend who is doing really well in a way that has been deeply earned.

the themes throughout the day were – when you know what you really love, and you begin to do that

(saying it out loud,
applying for jobs or school or other opportunities related to what you love,
taking classes in it,
praying about it,
lighting candles for it to come,
saying no to things that are NOT it,
and so on)

it’s like you are unshuttering your dream house, letting light and air come into it, making a place you can truly live in.

i am beginning to understand the link between happiness and success more experientially. when i do what i love, i am happy and curious and can work very hard in a way that doesn’t feel like work, but like living and contributing in ways that are needed. that happiness is interpreted in the world as a confidence which makes more people want to bring me into their work.

i have also been reflecting on why so many people i know are putting off their happiness, don’t feel they deserve to just do what they love, right now.

there is a strength in commitment, and in patience. but stop waiting for some external factor to give you cosmic permission to be happy, for life to happen to you. as far as i can see, in my own life and the lives of those i love, the happier you are, the more resilient you are, and the more the universe is a learning ground – not a game to lose but a creation to participate in.

so on the off chance that you aren’t doing what you love, what are you waiting for?

the water’s fine.